At my new job, I’ve been meeting a ton of new people. Once college ended for me last Spring, there were no more spontaneous meet and greets. No running into people outside of an organization interest meeting or chatting with new friends walking towards the dining hall. Over the past year and a half, I’ve stuck to myself and my own small group of friends. I’ve tried to focus my attention towards my familiar friendships and family. I keep my circle small. Not that I don’t trust others, but because I find it easier to maintain a small number of great friends, rather than a large group of lousy ones. A good theory in retrospect, but most of my friends live far away because I met them in college. Because of this, I keep to myself if I’m not hanging out with the friends that do live close. With so much alone time, you’d think I’d get bored but it’s quite the opposite. I have my brain to keep me company, and with a wild imagination, my days span from great to not so great. When I can stay occupied with a good book or drafting a story idea, I’m all set. However, my overly anxious brain likes to cause trouble.
Where will I go from here? Will I ever find a job that I enjoy? What if my friends move on?
These are all questions that kept me up at night for months. My dad’s famous piece of advice is “You can’t worry about yesterday or tomorrow.” And as much as I’d like accept this as my own mantra, I can’t stand not having a grip on the future. This break that I’ve taken between school and my next life step has been torture, and I would often be swimming in a pool of unnecessary stress.
Fortunately, with my new job, I’ve been blessed to see one of the bigger pictures in life. I’ve met young mothers, folks that have recently lost loved ones, and people that can barely make ends meet. I try to believe that everyone is trying their best with what they have. Not everyone has the luxury to think about tomorrow, when their main priority is getting themselves through the day. Naturally, I’ve adopted this new outlook in life without much effort. It’s being surrounded by those who are thankful to have what they have that’s been the real blessing in my life. I can often get caught up in the should haves and could haves, but I think’s it’s a good time to sit back and allow right now to happen.