My headspace is ridiculously jammed, so I’m not sure what will come of this blog post. In the past few days, I’ve been thrown another job rejection, celebrated my first published piece, been told by a white man that my feelings about the Confederate Flag were invalid (will blog about this sometime soon), and have had a temper tantrum I wasn’t proud of. My mind is in a bit of a Clusterfuck.
I’m beyond pretending that I have shit together. If you’ve read my blog, you know that I don’t. I’m stuck between feeling like a failure but then also pissed about the culture that makes us believe we have to have “it” together.
This will not be a whiny post about how much further I have to go. It’s honestly exhausting and just plain mean. It’s not fair to myself. It’s just that I’m just a bit tired and overwhelmed. My brain is everywhere at once. I’m constantly overthinking and second guessing. If I enjoy myself too long, I’m back to hassling myself on what I should be doing.
I want to finish 31 Days of Blogging, but the stress of daily content is taking its toll on me. I want to write genuine things and not have to create fluff just to hit a number.
In awesome news, I’m seeing Nicki Minaj in concert tomorrow for the first time, and it should be a treat. I have about a million things to do before my travel journey, so of course I’m perusing the internet.
Wish me safe traveling and I promise to have better content soon!