The Start of Something New
I will admit two things right now:
- Yes, the title of this blog has been inspired by my recent High School Musical binge.
- I am terrible at trying new things.
As I learn more about myself, I’ve come to terms with my need to be in control. I can let go, but only on my terms. It is a quality I find myself working on accidentally. Yes, accidentally. I will often leave my comfort zone on accident, not meaning to. Which is probably better than forcing it.
In many recent conversations, I have been suggested to practice yoga to help with my anxiety. From my counselor to my cousin, everyone insisted on it. Afraid of the failure that I knew was to come—physical strength isn’t something I acquire—I shied away from the idea. I attempted videos online, and never followed through. I avoided practicing in a free class opportunity out of fear—I could mess up…in front of others?! I completely shut the idea down.
A friend of mine reached out after trying yoga on her own, and I thought, “this has to be a sign.” So I finally gave in to my fears and myself.
I tried another yoga video online and I didn’t quit! But let’s be 100% real: it was not pretty.
I was wobbly. I ached. My chest almost suffocated me, LOL. But I didn’t give up. Luckily I was in the privacy of my own home so no one could witness such an embarrassing act! And even if I felt silly in my initial attempts, I settled into peace.
So, I’m here to confirm that I was wrong about yoga. I’m glad that I was. I never believed it could be a practice for me, but I am already so inspired to push myself further in my private practice. I want to go beyond videos and eventually step into a studio. I want to study the history and culture of yoga that can often be erased or appropriated.
For any doubters out there, push yourself out of the negativity and go beyond your comfort zone. I am slowly doing that and finding it to be so rewarding.
What is something that you’ve always wanted to try but gave up before giving yourself a chance?